Does this Haircut Make Me Look Big?

As Ken and I discussed a recent visit to my hairdresser, he paraphrased one of our favorite quotes: “The one constant in all your failed haircuts is you.” It’s true. I can count on three fingers the number of times I have been completely satisfied with a haircut in the past, say 25 years. (It would be unfair to count anything before that because as a youth, I truly had no taste, as evidenced by the fact that I thought McDonald’s french fries were pretty good, and I actually enjoyed several songs by Bob Seeger and the Silver Bullet Band.)

When I come home from getting my hair done...actually, let me back up a little more: Once I hop into the car after getting my hair done, the first thing I do is splash some water from my water bottle onto my hands and plaster my hair back down to an almost normal look. Why do hairdressers seem to have this need to give me super-boof-dos? I’m not too crazy about the Tiny Middle-Aged Lady With Super-Sized Hair look. I suppose it’s possible that after careful consideration, they have decided that I could use the extra height, but no matter how tall my hair is, I still can’t reach most of the stuff in my cupboards without climbing up on the counter.

When I get home from getting my hair done, my husband cautiously asks how it went this time. Whether I’ve gone to a highly recommended $50 a pop Salon and Spa with an unpronounceable Italian name or to a chain salon with a name like “Kutz 4 Cheep”, my usual response is, “I’ll have to give it a couple of days.” But within a day or two I will be able to answer definitively that the bangs are too short, or it’s too short all over, or it’s too short over my ears (I have been white-walled at least three times in the last year); that the left side was left longer than the right, the right side was left longer than the left, the length at the back is crooked; OR that the shape is all wrong, or it’s too blunt, or too choppy; or they left the back way too long, and now I feel like my mullet and I should be singing backup for some One-Hit Wonder 80s band.

Why is it so difficult to get a decent haircut? Part of the problem is that, frankly, I am really not very good at speaking Salonese. There was a time many years ago that I tried to describe to a new hairdresser a hairdo with flipped ends, without actually being familiar with the term “flipped”, and I wound up with hair that was full on the top and sides, tapered at the base of my head, and longer again at the collar, as though I had decided to chop off a mullet and changed my mind halfway through.  It is always best to choose your words carefully. For example, when your stylist asks how you liked the last haircut she gave you, you should look straight into the eyes of this person who is currently wielding a very sharp pair of scissors, and will soon have your arms pinned down under a heavy plastic cape, and lie through your teeth.

One of these days when I am brave, I’m just going to go to Ken’s barber and get the same haircut he has--Ken, that is, not his barber. It takes him all of 8 seconds to style it, and by that I mean wetting his hands and slapping the heck out of his noggin until he gets the pokey little devils to flatten down. In the mean time, I guess I’ll just continue to make my haircut appointments few and far between, and brush up on my New Wave dance moves, just in case.

Old Age MAY Be Just Down the Road, But I Lost My Car Keys Again

Somehow I have developed a reputation in my family as being astoundingly technologically impaired, but in reality I am totally techno hip. For example, I possess the knowledge of changing the speed on a record player so that the singers sound like Alvin and the Chipmunks.  I can still totally kick butt on Atari Pong (well, I could kick my cat’s butt anyway). And anytime you rent a VCR, don’t have a cow! I can set it up for you in a jiffy! And rewind it, too.  Truth be told, my techno-hipness comes and goes: When I was in college, my first experience with a microwave didn’t go so well. (How was I supposed to know that pots aren’t microwavable?) But even if my techno skills aren’t always cutting edge, I reject the notion that being technologically challenged means I’m getting old.

That being said, here are my Three Top Clues that old age MAY be around the corner for me:
I have trouble staying up late. I truly can’t remember the last time I made it to 10:30 p.m. on New Year’s Eve. But that may be because I can’t even remember what day it is half the time.
It may be a sign of something that my husband and I have to finish each others’ sentences because we usually get hopelessly lost what day it is half the time.

If forgetfulness was truly a sign of old age, I could have joined AARP before I was legally old enough to be considered an adult. Surprisingly, I remember very clearly the time in highschool that I locked myself out of the house three times in one evening--and one of them wasn’t even mine! Okay, that was an exaggeration: I don’t remember that evening at all; I just wrote it down at the time. I also used to have a bad habit of locking myself out of my car. I didn’t carry a purse or backpack at the time, so to keep from having to shove a wad of keys the size and shape of a medieval flail in the pocket of my 501 jeans, I would just toss them under the driver’s seat when I got out. The problem occured when I got back to the parking lot and realized that I couldn’t even remember which car was mine. The upside to all of this is that I got really good at breaking into cars, and jimmying locks on apartment doors with a slightly damaged credit card. And when you’re a poor college student, these skills become invaluable.

If, like me, you occasionally tend to lose track of things, there is good news. According to a recent article in the Wall Street Journal, “The average person misplaces up to nine items a day.” [In truth, this factoid was more troubling to me than reassuring--if I truly misplace that many items a day, evidently I am also completely unaware of having lost 7 or 8 of them.] The article goes on to state the following, “Everyday forgetfulness isn't a sign of a more serious medical condition like Alzheimer's or dementia….
“Stress, fatigue, and multitasking can exacerbate our propensity to make such errors.” While we’re on the subject, do you ever get exacerbate and exasperate mixed up? How about lose and loose? And where do you stand on regardless and irregardless? Think carefully before you chose to respond.

Now where was I? Oh yeah. If the above statement is true, it seems to me that the closer we are to retirement, the better we will be at remembering things, because we’ll be past the stage of life where we are fatigued, stressed, and prone to multitasking. Actually, this rather makes me look forward to getting older...that and the Early Bird Dinner Specials a friend recently told me about.

Yes, the prospect of getting older is a mixed bag:
The first time my younger sister spotted a gray hair growing deliberately out of my scalp at age 17, I laughed. (Denial)
The first time a grocery store cashier called me “ma’am”, I was in my early 20s, and I was kind of annoyed. (Anger)
The first time a teenager asked me, when I was in my early 30s, “How did you feel the first time you realized they were playing your songs on the Oldies station,” I was so astonished by the question, that it didn’t occur to me until hours later that they didn’t actually play my music on the Oldies station. (Bargaining. In point of fact, I am not 100% sure that this would be considered “bargaining”, but that’s what’s comes next in the Kubler-Ross model.)
The first time I discovered, in my mid-40s that I had Oogway neck, I almost cried. (Depression)
BUT...
Naps. (Acceptance)

So, how do I know I’m not yet a geezer? I honestly can’t remember…what day it is half the time.

Quick! Someone Hide My Scale!

My husband stood still in the kitchen, blinking for a moment or two. He had just asked, innocently if somewhat naively, whether I wanted the last Nutella brownie. Although I give him credit for enjoying shopping, as well as dark chocolate, the truth is: He is not a girl.  How could he have guessed in the nanoseconds after the question left his lips the range of emotions which surged through my frazzled little psyche: overpowering desire for the brownie, guilt for wanting the brownie, worry that I might lose control and put on 5 pounds after eating the brownie (and the ice cream, fudge topping, Reddi Whip, chopped pecans, maraschino cherry, and maybe a small handful of sprinkles, which are all essential accompaniments), shame at my potential lack of self-discipline, stress that I might be transferring the wrong values to my teenage daughters in obsessing over my food intake, and extreme annoyance with myself for most of these thoughts--besides the original one about wanting the brownie. I bravely replied in a choked voice, “Umm...no,” and turned my face to hide my tears. How had I come to this?

Somewhere in the neighborhood of 30 extra pounds ago, I had almost come to terms with my matronly figure, looking like an over-sized pear that was losing the battle with gravity. I laughed right along with Garfield when he said, “I am not overweight; I am undertall.” And the day my sister-in-law and I wedged ourselves side by side into a big tube and bounced along on a lake behind a boat, I confess that I laughed until I cried when we saw what cellulite looks like jiggling at 25 mph! 

At that time, I couldn’t imagine myself ever seriously attempting to lose weight. Dieting is such an unpleasant word--the sound of it is uncomfortably close to the word dying. And frankly after giving birth to four kids, and later hitting middle-age, I was pretty sure that I was stuck--besides the fact that denying myself dreamy desserts or calming carbs while raising a pack of teenagers seemed truly ill-advised. Food is way cheaper than therapy...depending on how one eats. If I felt that I had a choice before me, it was not the choice about how to lose weight, but about the choice to either come to terms with my shape or to be constantly miserable. “Life is too short to not enjoy food,” I told myself. Whenever people would say, “Oh, none for me, thanks. I’m being good,” I wanted to laugh at them. Or slap them. So I just rolled along enjoying myself, with admittedly one or two bad habits: emotional eating, social eating, mental eating, spiritual eating, boredom eating, movie-watching-eating, book-reading-eating, eating to sustain life, eating to enjoy life...there are probably others but you get the idea.

Then one day I received a revelation: The Midnight Dessert Buffet. We had a cruise coming up in a couple of months and I had a flash of brilliance--if I lost 10 pounds in the weeks leading up to the cruise, I could eat as much as I wanted to at the Midnight Dessert Buffet with no harm done! Brilliant! Properly motivated, I can do amazing things. The biggest hurdle to overcome was my emotional eating. But I quickly learned to replace brownies and cookies...and graham crackers and Doritos and popcorn and spoonfuls of peanut butter and spoonfuls of hot fudge topping and spoonfuls of butterscotch caramel topping...with gum, mints, and fingernails. Long story short, I reached my goal and then some. But what did I give up in the process?

When the night of the Midnight Dessert Buffet came along, I didn’t even really want to go. I was having fun with my new size, and my newly found self-discipline (read: Boring-ness). My teenage daughter was disappointed. I also became one of those annoying people no one wants to go to lunch with: “I’ll just have a Caesar salad with light dressing--on the side--and a glass of water. Dessert? [haughty sniff] No thank you.” My lunch friends were disappointed. For many, many months I did not bake any goodies or buy any donuts. My family was disappointed.

Several months after breaking the habit of emotional eating, one day I fairly threw myself off The Wagon. Somehow I got the idea into my little pea brain that if I ate something when stressed, just this once--just to try it--it would be no big deal. Probably wouldn’t even be satisfying. Dead. Wrong. I ate it and felt immediately soothed, calmed, and pacified, wrapped in the comfortable and familiar arms of dark chocolate. It was at this point The Wagon ran over me. It wasn’t long before I began telling myself that a little bit of this or an extra helping of that surely wouldn’t hurt. Now I bounce between More Or Less Completely Out of Control, and More Or Less Completely Boring. 

What is important to me is being physically healthy, and making emotionally sound decisions--which do not include emotional eating. But instead of emotional eating, I find myself obsessing equally over my weight, and when the next meal or snack will be. I vacillate between feeling good about the way I look, and feeling the guilt, worry, shame, stress, and annoyance previously discussed. This is better?!?

I could have been happy as a saggy piece of fruit.

10 Things To Know For Wednesday (With Help From the AP)

A look at late-breaking news, upcoming events and the stories that will be talked about Wednesday, somewhere between discussions of the Toilet Tech Fair, and crumbling NCAA brackets:

1. GM FACES CONGRESS ON RECALL DELAYS

The company's new CEO admits she doesn't know why it took years for the automaker to fix a faulty ignition switch linked to 13 deaths. She is also trying to figure out how she got suckered into this job in the first place.

2. PALESTINIANS RESTART BID FOR UN RECOGNITION

The surprise decision signals a new crisis in the troubled efforts to bring peace to the Middle East. Whether this news is actually New News, or whether this headline has secretly been recycled dozens of times over the past several decades, is currently under investigation.

3. TIGER UNDERGOES BACK SURGERY

The world's most-recognized golfer will miss The Masters, but will the Masters miss him?

4. US WEIGHS RISK OF FREEING JONATHAN POLLARD

Releasing the convicted spy could spur talks between Israel and the Palestinians — or prove a costly embarrassment to the White House. And between the recent round of technical glitches on the government’s healthcare website and the President’s Power Rangers PJs, they just don’t need any more embarrassing moments

5. CONGRESS OKs $1B FOR UKRAINE

The loan guarantees are part of a bill giving lawmakers a way to denounce Russia for its military incursion and express support for Kiev, since they learned that neither sticking out their collective tongues nor blowing raspberries were as nearly effective as they had originally hoped. Give money--good ploy.

6. 'GOOD NIGHT, MALAYSIAN THREE-SEVEN-ZERO'

Malaysia now says the last words from the cockpit of the lost plane were not, "All right, good night," raising further questions about the government's credibility, rationality, soundness, stability, sanity, grasp of reality, dosage of medications, etc.

7. WHY CANDIDATES REMAIN LEERY OF 'OBAMACARE'

Because. Period.

8. HOW APPLE SAYS SAMSUNG REACTED TO THE IPHONE

The South Korean company didn't have a product that could compete — so it stole the iPhone technology, Apple alleges in a patent infringement trial. Apple has furthermore accused Samsung of stealing its spot-locked window seat and of breathing on them.

10. WHICH YOUNG AMERICANS ARE STILL AT A CLEAR DISADVANTAGE

In every region of the country, white and Asian children are far better-positioned for success in mathematics, expecially counting and spelling, than black, Latino,  American Indian, Polynesian, Canadian, redneck, Liberal Elite, white, or Asian children of any gender, culture, religion, nationality, income, height, mass, or age.

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